Remembering My Friend Aug 31, 1998 I am changing this page again. It will probably change several times. So, please be patient with me. I am not very good at doing this sort of thing. I need to express my sadness and by doing so, hopefully, heal a little more. Today, the first anniversary of Diana's death, has been an extremely sad day for me. My emotions have been running wild the whole day....my heart is breaking. I can not express in words what is in my heart. I have heard all of the rumors surrounding my friends tragic death. I spent a lot of time crying. I do not know how to express what is in my heart. I wish that I could express my feelings. I know there are people who think that it is silly to cry for someone that is gone. To me it isn't. Many of the insecurites that Diana had, I also have. Perhaps that is the reason we clicked from the very first time that I was introduced to her. I have really wanted to lash out at the people who were circulating vicious rumors about my friend. I have always deplored how people, with narrow minds, resort to rumor mongoring. Now that I have had some time to think about what I wanted to say on this page, I want to use this page to celebrate my friends life. On this page I want to remember Diana as I knew her. Diana was human too. She had the same faults and frailties that affect us all. Just because she happened to be the Princess of Wales didn't make her immune to the problems that each of us have faced or are facing right now. She had more than her share of problems. Many times, my heart would break as she would share with me some of the things that were affecting her life. Please be patient with me as this page takes shape. July 3, 2000 How can you express your inner most feelings in print. I have thought about this for almost two years now. To say that I have healed from this tragedy would be a lie. I still very much miss my friend. I still grieve her loss so very much. It is like a part of me is missing. I have good days and bad days. I have many times wished that I had accepted her last invitation to one of her charity functions. How can you make peace with your friend when she is no longer with you? How can you say good-bye to someone when they are no longer here? It's said that time heals all wounds.....and to some extent that is true. One learns to cope with the loss...but one never forgets the essence of the person. The smile, the sudden ducking of the head when she was unsure, the laughter, the warmth of her friendship....all the tiny things that made Diana who she was. Time makes the loss easier to bear.....but it doesn't dull the memories. Memories that can be taken out, dusted off, and enjoyed over and over again. It is those memories, that lessen the pain....make the bad days better and the good days more joyful. It is the memories that bring comfort and sometimes tears ...and it is in those memories, that we all share, that the True Spirit of Diana lives on, bringing the comfort and healing that were part of her legacy. Sign the Memorial Book View the Memorial Book Home :: Memorial :: Join the WebRing :: Diana's Message :: Awards Received Photo Gallery :: A Scotsman's Prayer :: Remembering My Friend